hugs

alright, maybe I'm weird.... And honestly? That's perfectly fine, but I don't like to hug guys.... I don't feel comfortable if I ever do... I feel like I'm sick to my stomough, I feel light headed, and absolutely, and completely guilty. But why? Sure I have a boyfriend, and I want to respect him, but he really doesn't care who I hug... but i still feel bad. maybe its because i dont want him to go around hugging other girls... that i want that one little physical, special thing to myself... and by me violating it, and letting other guys in on my hugs, i am a hypocrite in not wanting other girls to hug him ubut then going around and hugging all the guys... but, whatever the reason may be. i am sticking to it because it is what im comfortable to me. and i have no problem turning down guys hugs. so this is how it shall stay: confusing, and unmoving. :P