NOT...........................

who cares what the hell i wear? who cares what makeup i put on? who cares what i say, what i act like, and whats acceptable for ME to be or do? who decides that? ive never been one to be confined to be something im not. i live life safe, but im not shy. ill go out and do something no one else will do. and none of my freinds really will do that. only a select, EXTREMELY SELECT, portion of my friends are really like me any more... i feel like ive grown up to be something different than what they all are going to be. and honestly? im really quite ok with that. im going to do what makes me happy, not what makes everyone else happy for once. im going to dance, im going to sing, and im going to wear dresses. im also going to act. im going to cut my own hair. what i am inside is not whats on the outside. what i WANT to be, is not what im being, and im tired of that. im just.... not. im really not. and its taken me 3 years to realize this.